clingin'

oh, christmas season... you have only brought me tears.
on the way home from school today, the song called 'I Wonder was Christmas in Heaven is like' by Sara Schieber. her husband passed away a little while ago, and left her with 3 children.
"Is the snow falling down on the streets of gold? Are the mansions all covered in white? Are you singing with angels Silent Night? I wonder . . . what Christmas in Heaven is like"
it brought my mom and i to tears.
somemore lyrics from Sara is

'when your deepest fears come true, and you don't know what to do, sometimes all you can do is breathe in, breathe out... and pray to God that somehow you will find the will to survive.'

'somesay time will heal all things. all the brokeness and pain. and someday all these tears will fade into the years. but right now, it's standing still. and i'm struggling with Your will. i'm trying to make sense of this sense of this hurt i'm living in. i'm wishing time away... i will hold onto Your love and lean on what You say. that Your promises will hold to those who wait.'

'where are you, my beloved. do you realize just how much my heart is bleeding? why did you have to fly away? leave me here to pick up all of the pieces? everyone keeps asking me how i am and how i feel... but i'm just numb to this whole thing... not having you here next to me.'

'the sky is grey, the leaves have fallen, the birds are gone, there's no more singing... til the summer sun comes back around. and with each step through fading memories, time is standing still, and so am i. and the world moves on, and the nights grow cold... and the winds blow strong against my soul. take my hand, and lead me Home. this long october road.'

loving her right now.
til next time. <3.